NINA FARINA

Change

I'm cutting my hair today. I haven't gotten a short hair cut since 2001. I just want it to graze my shoulders which, for me, is short. I think my hair looks better long but every four years or so I cut it short. I've only lasted this long because each time I wanted to cut my hair I got a new tattoo. I have decided to accept this cycle. I am going to cut out all the dyed parts of my hair. I will grow it out for four years and then cut it, donating the hair to locks of love. Maybe who knows, I could cut my hair this afternoon and then start crying for the big mistake I have made. Shit, I could chicken out before 3:00. But, the intentions are there.

I have an interview tomorrow for a job that I don't know if I want. I like my current situation but it may be time to expand in order to hit my long term goals. I fear leaving my situation and then being filled with regret. I think that is what a lot of people fear.

I need to break myself of the habit of buying/making people presents/cards and not sending them. I currently have three gifts and one card that I have been sitting on. I made a gift for one of my friend's daughters (hi Noyam) over a year ago that I haven't sent.

I've been writing. This is a big change from normal. Since I have been writing I have smoked twice. I'm ashamed of myself and scared that in order to write I have to smoke. As if the nicotine unlocks a door in my brain. Blech.

I feel like starting something.

What are your five best decisions?

Mine

1. At 14 i choose to give up all late after school activities so my baby brother and sister would not have to stay in extended daycare. (any loss I experience was far outweighed by their gain)

2. Going to Wellesley

3. Using birth control

4. Going to law school in New York City (since I got to do law school and experience a ton of great poetry).

5. Choosing John (choosing when to be his girlfriend, when to not be his girlfriend, and then choosing to be his wife)

An article by me, and an article about me...all in the same day

so a few months ago someone contacted me about writing an article on me. i thought the idea had been dropped after the interview but apparently the author just forgot to tell me it was running


so here it is

I'm a published lawyer

Funny--I don't have a subscription the the journal I am published in. You can see my name and a snippet of the article if you click here.

I'm soooo excited.

Fellowship

As much as I like to be alone, and as much as I need this as an artist--I have realized that, contrary to my logical beliefs, I am happier when I am around people. This past birthday weekend was fabolous. I acted like I was turning about 14 instead of 27 and maybe that is what made it so great.

The Lewis family joined me at the fair and it was soooo nice to spend time with the little Lewises. It's not often I get to hang out with my friends' kids and it was a great excuse to go through all the fun houses.

The, one of my long time friends came down from the ATL for the weekend. We didn't do anything blow your mind amazing, I think I had the most fun sitting around the house playing Balderdash and drinking (John makes the BEST drinks!).

Last night we had a boil at my house, joined by my in-laws who spoil me sooo much. Sitting around I just realized I am blessed. And, the people in my life are part of that blessing and I really should make more of an effort to bring more people in my life.

I think 27 is the year I start taking dance classes again.