NINA FARINA

I'm writing again / thinking about writing / still writing lots of mourning poems but it's different now somehow. Below are two works in progress. They're all works in progress.

Creative commons and such, though I would like to be advised if someone decides to use them.
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For Juan

I"ve been trying to hold my breath
to get past the in between
these caught in cages moements
when emotions paralyze
there are days when I want to let myself lay in bed
and think of you
whispered I love yous in shaded rooms
summer days
I get
caught in a past of fast embraces
stale malboros
and notes hanging in the air
you
are all the inspiriation I've had
you
are all I'll ever want to be

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untitled

It's the year that took words away
because I was too choked on everyday emotions
and all my poetry
went into eulogies

I will never have enough magic
to describe
what you were

So I stumble
like an infant over the corpses that have littered my months
wishing there was a corner I could turn
into the rosey life people think I lead

Happiness
is an everday decision
to not focus on the big picture
that makes today seem so small
and now seem so insignificant

From Salome's blog...consider yourself tagged as well

5 things in my refrigerator:
1. a grapefruit
2. low fat plain organic yogurt
3. left over chicken
4. apple sauce
5. cheeses

5 things in my closet:
1. stuff from goodwill
2. shoes
3. dresses
4. stuff
5. scarves

5 things in my purse (i normally don't carry a purse but i have a lil bag that comes with me on long days):
1. an extra pair of contact lenses
2. lip gloss
3. my lil black notebook (poetry on one end, notes on genocide on the other)
4. latest issue of International Security (a journal published by MIT press)
5. my wedding notebook

5 things in my (read john's) car
1. beach chairs
2. roller blades
3. two bikinis (i do love warm weather so)
4. a towel
5. a book on basic real estate

the lesson is

if i get nostalgic for the parties we had at my abuela's when i was a kid
and i drink
and i dance
and i log onto my computer and go to the amazon website
i will buy lots of bomba y plena cds before i realize what i am doing

but i won't cancel my order
i won't
i won't
i won't

Beyonce and Fur....sort of

I think the way that PETA confronted Beyonce is brilliant.
However, I think they should do one more thing--if they paid for a dinner with Beyonce and if she ended the dinner before the meal was through I believe they should sue her for breach of contract. Not that I love PETA, but they paid for her company throughout a dinner and she did not keep her end of the bargain.

P.S. A few post ago I wrote something titled "At the intersection of law and art" I was kind of surprised that you vocal people (who, even if you don't comment end to email me) had nothing to say. So I think you think documentary film makers should do nothing about the lives of their subjects.

Occasionally

I need to remind myself that I may not make much money but,
I do good work--in both its nature and its quality.
I believe in what I do.
And most of the time I love what I do.
I have a goal and I am pretty sure I am getting there.
These are all good things. You know, aside from the making a lil money. ;-)

Is it just me or is Cassie freakishly like Aaliyah?
Body shape and everything...

Friends and Loved Ones

Please email me your mailing addresses so that I can replace/update my lost address book.

At the intersection of law and art

When do artist have the duty to intervene? Outside of the art world, in most areas, there is no duty intervene, no good samaritan law...no matter how much we don't like it it is legal to watch someone get murdered and not do anything about it (okay there are exceptions but law always has exceptions).

Recently Diane Sawyer has drawn a lot of heat for a segmet aired on Primetime. She was following merging families (step families with issues). When the segmet finally aired there was footage of a father physically abusing his daughter. I actually tried to watch the segment when it first aired and I changed the channel because of how the father was wailing on the daughter. Neither Diane nor her crew reported the abuse nor did they intervene. Many people are saying that she profited / exploited the abuse situation for her own good.

In Diane's defense for a documentary you are supposed to document and use your footage to teach others. However, in my opinion, people are not gazelle's. Sure with nature footage you don't intervene when the lion eats the gazelle, but they're animals. In this situation we are dealing with a child. At the risk of losing great footage I think Diane should've called DCF and should not have aired the footage.

Which brings me around to the adults. When John first told me about this article I thought that maybe the director was profiting. This documentary is about the Golden Gate Suicides. Over the course of the year a crew filmed the bridge and caught suicides on film. From what I have read it seems that the director was rather responsible -- initially I was afraid he may have incited the suicides.

The question I have is this--If you are a documentary film maker and you are filming situations with people--when do you or SHOULD you have a duty to intervene in the lives of your subjects?

Happiness is

Finding out popcorn is a whole grain.

But seriously when I gradauted college one of my older wiser friends told me that, for women, aging doesn't happen gradually it happens in spurts. Boy she wasn't kidding. When I was 21 I became lactose intolerant and my metabolism slowed.

I turned 26 in November, gained 5 pounds in two months, dietted from January till I think about two weeks ago and have come to the conclusion that my metabolism has just gone from speed racer to kid on a bicycle. The diet is over only because I have accepted three things 1. I am not willing to starve myself 2. the changes I have made have to be permanent and are not temporary 3. these five pounds don't look so bad.

I know some folks who know me are gonna hate reading this because I am bitching about becoming a size 6. The newness is that now when I eat cheesecake and a ton of other crap I gain two pounds in a day.

BUT popcorn is a whole grain, and I like to swim so...growing older ain't all bad.

p.s. on a side note be on the look out for wedding invites :-)